It goes without saying how much everyone has missed family & friends during these weeeeird times.
But having a baby during lockdown has made it harder and I would even say easier in equal parts!
We were lucky, if thats the right word to use, that Lily was born around 6ish weeks before full lockdown kicked in. I feel very fortunate in this as it meant both my Mum & Chris could be my birth partners and we could also have visitors in the hospital.
It also meant that because I had a C-Section my Mum was able to help me have a bath/shower whilst Chris looked after the baby. Family also got to meet her, right at the very beginning.
However, as a lot of people will know, in the first weeks of a baby being born they don’t do much haha! They sleep, eat and you wait on them hand and foot.
Even though I felt able enough to pop to the shops a couple of days after having her (even though the midwife told me off) it meant I got to have a little bit of normality.
I’d always had these visions of popping out with my Mum or my sister to a coffee shop and get some tea and cake or something. I didn’t get round to this and although we will still be able to do this in the future, it’s just not the vision I had in my head of showing my tiny baby off to the world.
This goes hand in hand with shopping trips with my sister. It’s something we tried to do often before Lily and when I was pregnant we always said how excited we were to do it with a little one in tow. We were going to go for our usual jacket potato lunch and we had joked how we would have a pushchair to carry all of our shopping bags!
Again, this is something we will be able to do post-lockdown, but it wouldn’t shock me if it was a year from now that we will both feel comfortable enough to go window-shopping and not feel on edge like everyone feels right now.
Although our families got to meet her right at the beginning, since lockdown started, no one has got to tickle her and make her do that smile that makes me fall more in love with her. They’ve not got to squeeze her adorable little cheeks or talk back to our little chatterbox. Those are the moments that won’t last forever. Facetime is great but not quite the same is it?
We haven’t got to go to any baby groups. I was looking forward to watching her blossom in these, lockdown but a swift stop to these. And now even though they’re holding them online and on zoom, it somehow feels like we’re missing out. To be honest at times I felt like I was letting her down, but realistically this is totally out of anyones control! It just means mummy gets extra play time with her, 1 on 1!
Lockdown is not all doom
and gloom though!
I’m very aware we are very lucky that we are all healthy and that our family are too.
The silver lining to lockdown is that it has meant Chris has had to stay at home. Meaning we’ve had 2 months of just us, settling into our own little routine. We’ve managed to get out on walks, thankfully Lily loves her baby carrier and settles well in it. In a selfish way it means I’ve not had to fend for myself as such, the way I’d have had to do if Chris had fully gone back to work after his paternity leave.
All this said, I can’t wait to give my Mum a big cuddle and be able to pop into Lidl for a non-essential shop haha!
This will be a story we tell Lily when she’s older; she might even learn about in school.